Honestly, I'm still trying to organize my thoughts here. WOW, what a ride I have been on with this series. I think I should start with putting this disclaimer again, in case my first review wasn't read. **DISCLAIMER** This is NOT your average romance. It's a dark, gritty, sometimes erotic psychological thriller with a heavy emphasis on plot. It also contains elements of dominance and discipline with dubious consent, psychological conditioning, and mental manipulation. There’s also gunfire and violence. If any of this offends you, this may not be the book for you. Intended for mature audiences only.
This book picks up right after
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Taylor tries with everything in her to please Sebastian. But sometimes it seems things just aren't enough. Each day when Sebastian comes home she never knows what his mood will be. She knows in her heart that she loves him, but struggles with what's right and what's not when it comes to her punishments. They can be so painful and during that time all she really wants to do is run...or beg for forgiveness and get back in Sebastian's good graces. She is constantly walking on eggshells. She honestly thinks she is the luckiest girl in the world. Just a short time ago she was living in a run down apartment barely making ends meet, but now living in Sebastian's huge house, wanting for nothing, with a sweet new ride and a hunky man in her bed. But every time she goes on and on about that, I keep wondering at what cost??A tiny voice in the back of her mind protested, insisting it was wrong, possibly even warped to love someone who could hurt her and to crave him the way she did, but it was like a fever-a sickness with no cure. There was no escape. There never had been. Not with him. There was no way to resist Sebastian, no way to fight back or win. If she left, he would every resource he had to find her. All she could do was raise the flag of defeat and give in.
I'm in the same boat about Sebastian with this book. I still want to love him so much. In his POV's, he really does love Taylor. I think he is 100% sincere about that. I honestly think slowly but surely Taylor is bringing more and more of his softer side out. But he's bringing his job home way too much and Taylor is having to live with the consequences. The simplest things sit him off. He hates the way Taylor fears him, but honestly what else does he expect. There was one part I was so beyond pissed off at him I thought I was going to have to put my iPad down. I know deep down that Taylor fighting back would be detrimental to her health, but sometimes I was just wanting her, so bad, when given some stupid order, to look him in the eye and scream "Fuck You". She's just too submissive for her own good, so she deserves a smack too, hahaha. NO really, Sebastian would kill me if I smacked her and probably kill her if she yelled at him, but hey, it doesn't mean that last night when I was so pissed at him while reading that I didn't visualize those things along with a frying pan incident to make myself feel better. :D
This book, in my opinion, was even more intense than the first. The suspense was out of this world. OMG, I didn't finish until 2am, but there was no way I could stop. I was hooked. Sebastian, himself, was even more...haha, scary?? He can be so sweet at times, gentle and loving, but whoosh one thing can be said and instantly he's the complete opposite. He can be over the top with his rules and expectations, but by the end of the book, I felt like I was starting to see a slight change in him. I'm hopeful anyway. I still want him to have his happy ever after. I also still think Marx has to go. I think Sebastian would relax a little if he didn't have Marx's pressure hanging over his head. lol, me reading this...
I still highly recommend the series!! It's dark and twisted, and I freaking loved it. I think I see hints of Sebastian growing into a better man for Taylor. They are small hints, and mostly just his thoughts in his POV, but I think he has discovered a little part of his humanity, it takes a while, and the majority of the small hints are in the end, but I think he's trying, and as long as Taylor sticks with him, it could be worth it in the end. She has still got a long road ahead of her, and hopefully after what happened he's gentler with her, but with that said, I am on the edge of my seat waiting for the next series. I need to put in a shout out to Christine the Romance Junkie, she's been reading this series also and has talked me into stowing my frying pan once or twice and since she was ahead, warning me for when I needed to brace, lol. Thanks girl!! With that said, I NEED MORE NOW, even though Sebastian is a crazy whirlwind, I feel like my life will be dull and boring without him for a while, lol. Now, haha, I need a drink...