Jamie Gypsy Smut~ateer

"You're pretty brave, sitting up front by yourself."

It all started at a chance meeting on a carnival ride. Both trying to beat their fears.


"I see the lights every night. It seems like the whole world has figured out how to be happy, but no one's letting me in on the secret."

Maise is facing her fear of a roller coaster due to the tragic lost of her bear on one from years ago. But also just really needing to feel alive. Evan is facing his fear and also preparing himself for a new job, a new town, and hopefully a new life.



They share a magical night full of beer drinking, carnival games, rides, and hot smoking sex in the front seat of Chevy Monte Carlo. But all too soon Maise sees what she's done and leaves Evan behind like she does all of her other conquests. However, unlike the rest of the older men Maise seduces, this one has a lingering effect on her. She can't seem to stop thinking about him. And then the unexpected happens. Maise runs into Evan, at schoool, in class, where he is going to be her teacher. They try, oh so hard, but within days they realize they can't get enough of each other.


"I can't hold on to you. You're like that shooting star. Just a trail of fire in my hands."

Maise and Evan keep sneaking around hotels, then weekends in St. Louis, touches here, glances there, but nothing is enough. They keep getting braver and braver. Maise shows up at his house during the week, he comes to parties to get her when she's gotten to drunk, kisses in the classroom during lunch, then more. They are falling madly in love with each other, or are they obsessed, or is it the thrill. Neither knows, they just know they can not get enough, until finally it all explodes.



Turns out more than one person knows about them. One exploits the knowledge cleverly, the other uses it as blackmail. Turns out though that's not the worse of it. Evan's been keeping a huge secret. A secret that, on top of the blackmail and the other proof could tear them apart.



"It's always goodbye with the mouth and until we meet again with the heart."

Okay, I can't say more. I actually feel like I've told too much. I felt so sorry for Maise the entire book. She's had a horrible childhood. Her mother is a drug dealer who has let all sorts of people in her home and has left Maise to raise herself. Her dad's gone. All she dreams of is her future and getting on with her life somewhere else. Then her mom happens. It was like no matter how hard she tried there was always something there to stop her efforts.

"This is the biggest thing that's ever happened to me. You, and all of this. You changed my life. Who I am. How I think and feel and see the world."


Evan hasn't had an easy life either. He's running from his childhood and other parts of his life, as well. But when they were together they were perfect. Evan just always wanted the best for Maise and was willing to destroy is own happiness if that's what it took for her to have it. I wish there would have been an epilogue or something. I would have liked to know what they ended doing in the future. Maybe there will be another book?? I don't know. It was a good ending I just was left curious at what happened after.