I'm going to start out with this from the blurb...**DISCLAIMER** This is NOT your average romance. It's a dark, gritty, sometimes erotic psychological thriller with a heavy emphasis on plot. It also contains elements of dominance and discipline with dubious consent, psychological conditioning, and mental manipulation. There’s also gunfire and violence. If any of this offends you, this may not be the book for you. Intended for mature audiences only.
Don't take this disclaimer lightly, it is just as it says. This is a darker read that you won't be getting hearts and flowers from, unless you catch Sebastian in a sweet, giving, mood, and ultimately you better be on his good side as well. With all of that said, I FREAKING LOVED THIS BOOK.
It was completely unlike anything I have read lately and literally had me hanging on every word, just wondering what sort of chaos would happen next.
Meet My "Special Agent" Sebastian "That's the funny thing about life. You never know who is watching and where it might lead. Look at us. One minute I'm involved in a heavy operation. The next I'm staring into your eyes, wondering where this beautiful woman came from."
I really, really want to love this guy. The problem is Sebastian down right scares the pants off me. No, I'm not kidding, this guy is intense, he's like the anti-hero of all anti-heros. Run the other direction if he comes your way, but don't plan on getting away because he can and will find you. He is part of a secret organization, and has been conditioned for years to have no sympathy, starting with being in the army then being recruited into the FBI and now his current job. Years of training has made him ruthless, with no regrets, and no apologies for his actions. I think you get my point, scary dude. "I have zero tolerance for disrespect. I expect more from my family, and I definitely expect more from you. Don't keep pushing me, Taylor. I will run things as I see fit, especially in my own home. Do you understand me? Don't talk back. Don't argue. Just listen and take those warnings to heart because I won't give them again."
Meet Taylor "Trust me, Just trust me and let me love you the way you love me. I don't want things. I want you and I want you to trust me enough to be the man you said you wanted to be. That's who I fell in love with."
This poor girl never had a chance. The story begins with Taylor on her knees with a gun held to her head. Turns out she was just in the wrong place at the wrong time, but she has seen too much and it will cost her life. Just flat out bad luck, but then Sebastian steps in and saves her...or does he. Sebastian goes on to ask Taylor out to dinner, and at first she says no, but she can tell no isn't an option so decides to just to go with it. From the very beginning, Taylor can sense Sebastian has a dark side, she just doesn't know how dark that side really is. After that first dinner date goes really well, Sebastian and Taylor start dating, everything goes really well for a while, but Sebastian starts urging Taylor to move in with him. It all seems too soon to her so she declines, but after a drive by shooting at her apartment, her choice is all but taken away from her and Sebastian convinces Taylor now is the time to move in.
Sebastian is controlling, short tempered, and very edgy. I'm talking this guy can change moods like a flip of a switch. Taylor soon learns this after a horrible misunderstanding and starts being cautious around him. But Sebastian loves Taylor and tries to hide his darker side from Taylor, but slowly over time things keep happening and his darker side comes out little by little. Let's just say Christmas Eve was a huge disaster, to say in the least, and ultimately sends everything else spiraling out of control. Just a huge advice from me, when you go to Sebastian's house follow the rules, ha, don't disrespect him and never, whatsoever do you ever, touch what's his, especially Taylor. Unless you don't like your face...hint hint. Okay but that's all I'm spilling. My reaction...lol
I feel like I'm saying the same thing over and over about Sebastian, but I just want that to be out there, so people don't start this book expecting one thing and getting another and then hating it because of that. This book deserves recognition, it's such a complicated, dark, raw, gritty read. Yes, there are times of abuse and violence, the disclaimer says that. Not a shocker. Yes, 75% of the time I was screaming in my head, "RUN, TAYLOR, RUUUNNNN" but once she hit Sebastian's radar she couldn't get away even if she wanted to, and Sebastian made that very clear around 89%. LOL, just read my updates. They all pretty much start with OMG or F bombs, but as the book goes on it gets darker and more intense and I'm going to say this again, I FREAKING LOVED IT. It's not for everyone, if you don't like violence or abuse just don't start it. You'll be highly disappointed and give it a bad rating and I just don't want that for this book.
Sebastian is crazy, lol. No, not in that sense, but I just mean it's a crazy ride. He's hot and he's cold. You don't cross him. He only gives you one warning of what he expects and if you don't get that warning there will be punishment. I'll just say one scene made Christian Grey and a belt seem like a sweet puppy. The thing is, Sebastian wants to be the guy Taylor deserves. Thank goodness, it's duel POV or Sebastian would be hated, because he really does love Taylor, it's just that his need for control and lack of sympathy overpowers everything else.
Taylor has to be Sebastian's soul mate. She has to be, because some of the things that go down between them, would have me running like the wind, even though I know he would find me and punish me, I would have to try. She's brave in her own way. Yes, she caves and just gives him everything that he wants, she's submissive so it's in her nature for starters, also she knows she doesn't have much choice, she's trapped, but she still loves him unconditionally. How she walks after some of their sex scenes is beyond me, especially that first time, but hey, I give her dibs. I know I normally like my heroines fiesty and smart mouthed, but I realize in this book, Taylor doesn't have that option, and if she tried to pull that off she would suffer the consequences. Speaking of Consequences, if you like that book this book is one for you too. Just had to put that in there, lol, because I thought that the entire time I was reading it. "It doesn't matter how you got yourself into this, cupcake. There's no getting out."~Josh
Go grab this book people. I don't know much more else to say without further repeating myself. It has lots of suspense, violence, and sex. When I mentioned Christian Grey earlier don't confuse it with BDSM. Sebastian is more of punishment and control. Sebastian and Taylor love each other, I just think that Sebastian has been conditioned for so long, he shows it the only way he knows how. He has found something to love and he holds onto it no matter what, even if he has to force her to stay. He's terrified of losing her he just has a different way of showing it, and sometimes the way he does things are ass backward but that's his way. I think he's misunderstood. I could actually go on and on, but I don't even know if this makes any sense, I feel like I have just rambled, but there it is, lol. I love this series and as soon as I run some errands I'm jumping right back into the next book. :)